Discussion with a Queen

Nova’s Tale – Part 3

I turned my back to her so she couldn’t see the tears welling in my eyes. I asked her to be my brave little commander and I couldn’t let her see the tears pooling in my eyes that are ready to flow. “You take care of yourself. We’ll be together soon … for my birthday.” I heard her words as I slowing walked away as our hands lost their grip on each other, “Nova, my husband, I don’t care what others say but when you signed that paper, you became my husband forever. I don’t say this enough but I love you with all my heart, now and forever.” I stopped at the door and whispered, “I love you too, my darling.” I heard her dry sobs as I walked down the ramp to my waiting family. I wanted to rush inside and take her in my arms and carry her off the ship in my arms so she would remain by my side forever but I couldn’t. It wasn’t the right time but I knew in my heart it would be soon. We would be together soon for all time and I will not let anything in the universe stop that dream. Just my beautiful princess and me, together as husband and wife until time came to an end.

I glad that the yacht possessed no exterior windows except on the bridge or my love would see the tears streaming from my eyes as the ship rose in the sky. Serenity placed her arms around me and held me close to her breasts, “Nova, it won’t be long. You will see your princess again.” She held me tight as the ship starting to disappear in the sky as it took her back to her home world. My heart would break if I didn’t know that I would see her soon but it still hurts down to my soul not to have her by my side. We have only knew each other for four months but every second away from her is an eternity even for someone that years will be measured by centuries and not decades. I have come to love her more than I can imagine in that short period of time but after we are married I will never leave her side.

I needed some time alone so I locked myself away from everyone and reviewed some of the dispatches that I have been putting aside the last few days so I could be with Mina every waking moment. We actually spent last night in each other’s arm just dreading the break of dawn. We thought we could keep the day from coming if we wished it away but it came and she had to leave with her family. May be these papers will distract me from thinking of her beautiful blonde hair or that mouth that had the right amount of pout. It seems that the moon cat project was progressing faster than expected. The third generation shows considerable more intelligence than was expected and in four more generation the kittens that I planned six years ago will be born with the intelligence potential of a human inside a cat’s body. Everything seems to be falling in place with my first project.

The final work has been performed on the black star power source even though Serenity didn’t know that I placed it so close to the palace but it proved extremely stable and in its own way it was an intelligent being. It ‘communicated’ with me just the other day telling me of the plans it has to build a structure to protect itself. It will be a majestic structure possessing the ability to exist inside and outside of the same space at the same time. Literally, it can be larger on the inside than the outside because of the way it fold gravity inside the structure and complete influence over time the black star will have within the fortress’ walls. Don’t worry, I can’t understand everything of the science involved but it does prove stable in the small test site that we established on a small asteroid called Styx located on the fringes of the solar system. I am in the early stages of finding out what this ‘being’ can offer to us but it is steadfast and loyal to our cause. I feel that it will be a valuable asset to our cause.

I was almost finished with the backlog when my eyes fell upon the blueprints for my new warship, the Princess Mina. I started to picture her in my mind. That long blonde hair flowing freely down to her waist and those blue eyes that shows me her total love in every secret winks that we exchanged with each other. I will carry these pictures of her in my soul until the day that I die. I can remember every word that we said to each over the past months. I remember every word that was spoken with others present and those words that only we spoke when I held her in my arms. Words of our love and future emblazed themselves in my memories. I know that it is hard to believe but we spoke as adults and not as children in our secret meeting. We spoke of deep undying love, love that will withstand all troubles that the universe can send to us. I will protect her with my life, as I know that she will freely give her life for me. We are one soul in two bodies but even the distance of a thousand stars can’t separate me from her. I reached out my mind to her and she answered. I may not be close to her in body but I will never be far from her in spirit. Our ‘talk’ helped me to adjust to the situation and I can tell that she was also aided by our contact. She’s my brave little princess and only her courage keeps me going in my task.

My family gave me some free time away from everyone but I still had my responsibility to help with the meals. Cooking for someone you love is the best part of my day and I remember Serenity and Ameri trying to teach Mina and Serena but I’m afraid that cooking may be beyond them for a few years but Serena does have a knack for sauces and stews and Mina is one of the best dessert maker whose pastries that I have tasted. My taste buds aren’t tainted by my feelings for her. She is actually a good pastry and cake chef. Serenity is the best cook amongst us but Ameri isn’t far behind her in that ability. I guess some of my favorite memories are those where my family is all together cooking for each other.

It was after one such dinner that Serenity asked me to keep her company for a while. Serena had to leave for a gown fitting for an upcoming gala that she was asked to attend. We kissed Serena good night as she left for her appointment and as the door to her inner chambers closed, Serenity reached for my hand and lead me to her study. A roaring fire had been started in the fireplace and we sat by each other on the sofa that faced the flames. She slipped her arm across my shoulder and I rest my head against her. I felt a soft kiss on the top of my head, “Nova, we need to talk.” I had no clue about what she wanted to say to me but she’s my sister and I would never avoid her questions.

“Nova, let’s first clear the air. I know about the black star that you built near this palace.” I was taken back because I thought its construction was well concealed since only Kunzite and Zoicite worked on it and then only late at night. “Even you couldn’t hide that from me. I knew that you was up to something but I knew that it was not harmful to me or my people so I let it continue but that’s not what I want to know.” I felt her heart beating quickly in her body, “Nova, what is happening to Serena and you? It seems that you grow older everyday and I don’t mean in the usual way for a child to grow.” I thought a second about what she asked. It’s true that we were developing faster than normal but it’s necessary. “Serenity, don’t worry about our growth. Our body is developing to contain the immense power that will flow through them. The crystals that we wear around our necks bring on the growth. ”

“No, it’s unnatural. You are still a child and no outside forces should be influencing your growth.” I sensed her shudder against me, “I hardly recognize Serena anymore. She looks that she has grow three years since Mina left just days ago. I don’t think that’s normal. It can only hurt her in the end.” I looked at my sister’s platinum hair and gave a reassuring kiss on her cheek, “Serenity, we are changing, adapting to our environment and the situation. We must change to meet the upcoming challenges or we will fail. We must not fail, the universe is depending on us.”

Serenity rose from the sofa and poured her a glass of water, “The universe, Nova? What does the universe has to do with this … war?” I knew that it was time to tell her everything that she needs to know. “It’s a long story and I only know what I have been told and the knowledge from the Dark Queen.” I saw fear cross her face when I mention her greatest enemy. It must be hard for her to keep close a being that is the opposite of everything she loves but she doesn’t realize what the Dark Queen will mean in our battles. “I need to assure you that the Dark Queen has nothing to do with the Negaverse or the two forces that are controlling the upcoming war. The Dark Queen or more specifically, me was something that was not foreseen by either side. I am a wild card, a being that holds his fate in hand but I don’t know which side to present that fate. I was giving life to lead the side of Law against Chaos but the attack against our parents and me released something that broke the bonds to either side. I’m a free agent, I can turn either way.” I can see that she wanted to ask me what side I would choose but I beat her question, “Right now, I choose to have neither side gain an advantage. At the moment, the Negaverse holds the upper hand so I will represent law in the war but it does not have control over me. I haven’t determined which side that I will finally choose but one day I know that I must make a decision.”

Serenity hugged me and drew me to her body, “How can you not join me? I’m your sister, your only blood sibling.” “Serenity, that’s not true. Beryl is still alive and I met her on Earth.” Serenity’s grip relaxed, “Nova, please understand I never would hurt you but I couldn’t tell you about her. She turned her back on us to side with Chaos. She left us behind to pursue her own goals.” I took her hand and led her back to the sofa. I placed her arm around me and I rested my head on her shoulder. “Sis, please don’t judge her harshly. She has her place in the grand scheme of my plan.” “Your plan?” I was torn. Could I tell her everything that I know?

I must tell her everything because she is my family and she is more than a sister to me. “My plan is still developing but I can tell you what I know. You have to understand that the battle between Law and Chaos has been fought for eons. It started millions of years ago before the first light shone in the galaxy and it may continue for millions more before the final outcome. Each side calls their champions from the general populace to lead their forces. You, Beryl, Serena, Mina, and I have been reborn many times during that period of time and we all have had different roles in the conflict. We are just pawns to them. Bright stars gleaming on the emptiness of space that they move haphazard across the firmament of time and space.” I took a sip of water from Serenity’s glass, “You and I have been family and enemies many times and I’m not sure the roles that we would have played if the Negaverse hadn’t interfered with my birth. We may have been the champions of Law or I could have turned to Chaos and followed Beryl but something happened and I broke away from the internal strife in my soul. The Dark Queen possessed equal amounts of Law and Chaos but since it’s precisely balanced, the universe was able to break the continual cycle and gave me a clear understanding of the conflict.”

I could see that these revelations was coming to her as a shock but she needed the knowledge, “I know it’s hard to understand but we are all pawns. Beryl serves Chaos, you serve Law, but I serve the universe. You have to let go of all your preconceive ideas of good and evil. Each force has its good and bad points and if one gains control over the other then the universe suffers. Without light there is no darkness, without good there is no evil, and without law there is no chaos. It’s a balance that must be achieved to stop the endless cycle.” “Can you stop the cycle, Nova?” That’s a hard question, “I hope that I would have the courage but I’ve seen the it continuing for another generation but for some reason I see myself with my Sailor Warriors but they are in different bodies but with the same souls.” These dreams disturb me the most and I never could understand them but I have to tell her, “Serenity, you know that I have visions of the past and future.” She nodded her head, “I have a dread one that concerns you. I see you face Beryl in the future in front on this palace. I see all my Sailors and Serena defeated by Beryl’s forces and you are alone against the mob. You use the Silver Crystal to destroy the enemy but it takes all your life force to accomplish that task. With your remaining power your collects the souls of everyone and send them to Earth to be reborn in a thousand years. In a way, you save your family at the cost of your life but your spirit lives on and travel to meet me in the future.”

I could tell that she was still absorbing the knowledge I gave her, “Does it have to end that way?” “Sis, please understand. My visions come from the past and the future. Some that I thought would have come true haven’t while others that I thought was impossible came to pass. I have too many people inside my head to comprehend what visions are dreams and which are fact.” I heard a sigh of relief, “That’s good … wait … too many people? What does that mean?” She needs to understand everything, “I have four others inside of me. The first is this being, the Nova that you know and appears before you. A Nova that’s torn between Law and Chaos and tries not to favor one side over the other but exists to balance everything. The second is the Dark Queen. A being that possesses the knowledge of the universe because it can see black and white at the same time. She sees everything as it truly appears and not as it wishes to appear. It is the more stoic part of my being, the part that allows me to understand what is happening but also what can happen by my actions. Truthfully, if the Dark Queen would have became the dominant persona at my birth it would have just left everyone to his or her own ends. The Dark Queen cares little for anyone or anything. It would rather be by itself in the universe so it can control its own destiny. I think that she would destroy everyone just to prevent having to choose a side to help. The Negaverse lost most of their power trying to create a being to lead their forces to victory but they instead created a being that would destroy them just to get some peace.”

I was torn to tell her the last two entities but the trusting look in her eyes gave me courage, “The third being is simply known as Sailor War. She is neither good nor evil but draws her being from those around her. She will appear in the future and it will depend upon Mina the side that she serves. Sailor War exists for only one purpose. She loves Mina with all her heart and will not allow any harm to come to her. She will be the avenging angel or an angel without mercy depending on her relationship with Mina. She is the worst part of me. I have no control over her and she will not talk to me but only says that we will meet in the future. The final being is Sailor Wind, the sailor that either will bring the winds of change or the winds of war. She scares me the most because I can’t understand anything that she tells me. Everything is gray and no color intrudes in her thoughts. She is the balance and the ultimate judge of everything that forms her throughout the ages. She is the final version of me, a version that will decide the fate of all the worlds.”

I leaned heavily on my sister. I had told her things that I would even not disclose to Mina and Serena. She knows my fears but I trust her with my entire being. “Nova, I never knew what you are going through. It must be frightening to know that the entire universe depends on how you develop. Everything in the universe is on one side or the other but you must face everyday knowing that you are alone standing on the line between … everything. I can only say that I will help you with all my heart. You and Serena are the most important people in my life and I know now that you will never allow her to come to harm. I’ll try to understand your mood but I have to ask. Are you strong enough to make the hard choices?”

“I must make those choices but I have faith in my heart and strength in my soul. I will not allow anything to stop me. I will fly to the stars and look at the heavens before me and when it’s all said and done I’ll know that I have made a difference.” My sister took me in her arms and pulled me on her lap. She held me close to her chest giving me the warmth of her body. Neither of us talked about our conversation that we just had but just let our love for each other flow between us. I left for my room an hour later with the knowledge that my sister was my strongest supporter.

I talked to Mina and I told her of my discussion with Serenity. I didn’t tell her everything, may be one day I will tell her but I think that we need to learn to care for each other before I can tell her things that may get her hurt. If the noble houses or the Negaverse learns my true nature, I believe that we could all be in danger before I have time to develop the High Guard and my ultimate weapons, the Sailor Warriors. I did hold certain items from Serenity. I had established a force in a past life that will one day unite the universe. My sailors are not the first one. I had established an order thousands of years ago as a secret organization to help control the balance between Law and Chaos. The universe hides them from the forces in this conflict until they are needed. It’s strange because some of the force belongs to Law while others support Chaos but neither side knows that they are really my troops. They will come together in the end time and help me make a final decision but at the moment they must fight against each other. It may be hard to understand why I’m playing both ends against the middle but I have to determine what is best for Man and the universe. The universe must be kind to me for the usual visions did not appear in my dreams. The only image that formed in my mind was the picture of my darling Mina.

So ends part three of Nova’s Tale. A little disclosure on why he tries to balance the forces instead of destroying one side in favor of the other. He learned from the Dark Queen that both must exist in some fashion and now he has to determine the amount of control to give. The next chapter involves the aftermath of the death of Mina’s parents. Be sure to tune in for Nova’s Tale part four – “Avenging Angel”.