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Title: The End
Author: Venus
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The sky rumbled, the thick atmosphere
hovered over the City. Gray smoke
rose
into the sky, trying to break free from the deadliness. Nevertheless,
instead
of bursting free, they became a part of the ashen sky. I watched in pain
at the
eerie environment. The air was so thick I could taste it. The flavor of
ugliness,
despair, and most of all, the end of our kingdom. It seemed unreal
that
it's over. A month ago, the sky was clear blue, the birds were chirping and
Tokyo
was full of vitality. With a blink of time though, all that seemed a
century
ago. My head ached, but it couldn't compare with the hollow feeling in
my
heart. I'm Tsukino Usagi, SailorMoon, and I've failed, I've failed my
friends,
my people, my world. I've heard too many times that good always beats
evil
and how the power of love can save the world. Well, I love the world and I
love my
friends. Where are they now? Gone, vanished, faded away, evaporated into
thin
air. And I cried, cried for them, cried for myself. But I am alive. I could
still
feel the breeze, even if it is filled with pain and despair. The air seems
to be
whispering, hissing their cruel words into my head, "you should have died
too."
I would love to have died, to be with Mamo-Chan, Rei, Minako, Ami, Makoto,
Haruka,
Michiru, Setsuna and Hotaru. But they save me, with their lives. Why?
Because
they believed in me.
"Usagi-chan
can make our world beautiful again." Venus whispered as she
disappeared.
I was betrayed though. By fate, by destiny,
by life. I've come to the
brink
of losing my friends and my world a couple times. But I believed in
myself,
I believed in love and somehow, I always find a path to tomorrow. This
time
though, all was lost, everything. So what's the point of living? Why am I
left to
be alive? Why? "Let me die!"
I cried into the empty sky. My voice
echoed,
then swallowed by the atmosphere, never to be heard.
When I
was a child, I use to have a list to live for. It was a list of what
wonderful
things will happen to me. It was the list that kept me alive, it told
Usagi
that you can't sleep your life away. I reflected on some of the bullets I
made.
Searching for something that will keep me living now.
Marry Mamo-Chan and we live happily ever
after.
"Mamo-Chan..."
I whispered, "Mamo-Chan..." I sobbed, surprised there were any
tears
left in my eyes. Mamo-Chan was gone. Gone Gone Gone. The words echoed in
my
mind, like shots from a gun.
I shut
my eyes...the words flooded through my mind.
...When
Ami-Chan wins the Nobel prize, when Usagi goes to College...when Rei
admits
she's wrong...when...
I
squeezed my eyes shut. I have nothing to live for. I have no one left. There's
no
point in living.
I
walked around the city, trying to blind myself from looking at people
groaning,
moaning in pain. I failed them too. And then out of nowhere, I heard a
whimper.
I opened my eyes. A little girl with raggy clothes was crying. I've
failed
her too. I thought then begin to leave, but the girl's cry became louder.
I
turned to face the purple haired girl, she had crimson eyes that seem to be
drilling
into my eyes. She was hurt, bleeding...blood. I hate blood, I've seen
too
much blood in my life. Standing still I avoided the little girl's eyes. My
own
eyes were filled with tears again. I ripped my tattered blouse...
"Hold
still." The voice that belonged to me was scratchy and my throat felt like
sandpaper.
Gently,
I wrapped the fabric around the girl 's cut as her crying belittled.
"Thank
you..."the girl murmured, her voice was light, sweet and echoic.
'Thank
you...' I know what those words meant.
'Thank
you Usagi, if it wasn't for you, we would be so lonely...'
'Thank
you Usagi, you are a true friend...'
'Thank
you Odango, I will always remember you...'
'Thank
you Usako, I love you very much...'
The
words flew in her head.
The
girl with the crimson eyes smiled shyly then turned away, vanishing among
the
ruins of the city. "Arigatou." She whispered away.
I
stopped crying. I won't feel sorry for myself when I can change the world
still.
'As long as there is hope I'll fight.' 'as long as my friends lives in my
soul
I'll fight.' 'As long as there is tomorrow I'll fight.'
I
walked down the path to the enemy. My friends were gone, but they still lived,
in my
heart. I won't give up, I won't let them ruin this world yet. Not when
love
still exists. Not till the day I die.
"Arigatou."
I whispered to the sky, to my friends, to the girl that gave me
strength,
to anyone.
With
that, Usagi carried her ginzinshou, fighting for her world, once again. And
once
again, her friends were behind her. She's Sailor Moon, Champion of love.
~the
end~
~and a
beginning of a new ending~
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